Franz; The Human

    Unlike the common custom of Filipinos, where almost everyone has their own nickname, people just call me by my first name, which is Franz. I am now a 15-year-old girl who is currently in 10^th grade at high school. Most of my time is spent on worldly things such as issues on the internet, new trending news, and memes. From my perspective, nothing is extraordinary about me except for my scoliosis. I am not that talented, but I do know how to dance, sing, and write stories that I am still thankful for because that is something that I am proud of. While there are times that I compose random songs that come from my deep thoughts or moods. It is often hard for me to be sure on some matters because I often tend to overthink a lot of stuff to the point that I reach illogical thoughts. The things I like and don’t, often depend on my mood. For example, if my current mood is being energetic, then I would like pop music, but when I’m in the mood of being such a drama queen, then I would like heart-breaking songs; though I am always in the mood to not like bitter gourds and to love any shade of violet. I am the eldest child among us three children of our lovely parents. In addition, I am also fond of the moon and the fictional world.

My personality often changes. I am often talkative whenever I am comfortable with those people who are with me, while I become quiet when I turn sick and tired of life or people. What I like about myself is that I can often easily read people’s behavior. There are a lot of times when I know people are lying or when they are not okay. I also often found myself being a listener to someone who wants to open up. Like when a friend or a stranger wants to share their problem, I would be there to listen and give them positive advice that was based on my experience, but after that, I would be the one being problematic or stressed out about what I just heard from them. I often have that personality where I always act so jolly and happy to spread positivity, yet I cannot apply my own positive life advice to myself. Instead, I end up being emotional and dramatic with almost all of my problems. There were times that I had anger issues before, but now I am trying to maintain control of it and not lose my temper, but there are really times where I burst out in so much anger. There are also times when I just stay quiet because I suddenly feel empty.

    I was always so sure about describing myself before because I was just the usual joyful girl who always prayed before sleeping, but now that I am in high school, my eyes have opened to a reality that made me feel unsure of a lot of things, including myself. I experienced an identity crisis during grade 9, which made me question a lot of my decisions, beliefs, and more. But, I just realized that I need to be more carefree because all I did was over-think everything. Though I am sure that we will always experience changes, that is why there are things we are unsure about. But as long as you still know who you are and you have the courage to not let others change you, then you still have yourself. My name is Franz and my age is 15. I am a moody person, and the word "human" best describes me. My unsureness makes me human. Having things to like and not to like makes me human. Scoliosis makes me human. Being moody makes me human. Nothing is so special about me rather than being a human.